aiyah. ss. nthing to say already. sbq was a killer. but i think i'm okay (okay. not good) with venice... thanks drew ah.. lucky you go thru with me last night or i think i'd not know what my factors are.. heh. (: i owe you one..
ladila. its e math tmr. dont feel like practicing. just feel like slackin. relax. and clear my brain. did an amath and chem paper today. seems so little yet so much.. aiyah.
havent done my QT for a long time and i finally did it yesterday, cos it felt like god wanted me to read my bible. so i open my bible, and it fell to isaiah 66 (cos there was a paper stuck between the pages. and i read the first paper, which so happened to be verse 2
"this is the one that i esteem. he who is humble and contrite in spirit, and trembles at my word... they have chosen their ways, and their souls delight in their abominations so i will choose harsh treatment for them, and bring upon them what they dread. For when i called, no one answered, when i spoke, no one listened. they did evil in my sight and chose what displeases me." isaiah 66:2 (later part), 3(later part) - 4(later part). and i was so frightened of my ss paper, and i only studied so so little.. i havent exactly been the best girl la..
so. ya. i prayed really really hard. then i flipped more. and ended up at ezekiel.
"therefore i will judge you each one according to his ways... repent! turn away from all your offenses; then sin will not be your downfall. Rid yourself of the offenses you have committed, and get a new heart and a new spirit... For i take no pleasure in the death of anyone." then i really prayed everything all out yesterday night. okay, maybe not all things. just stuff that i was worried about. and today. luckily and thankfully by the grace of god, venice came out. so. what i'm trying to say is. my faith strengthed abit more yesterday. i still dont know why i took out my bible. haha. oh well. it just made me realise more that god is always looking down on me.
really tied in with chris's sermon yesterday.. he said that god is working in your life, even if you may not realise it, and even though your life might be in the pits maybe, but in the end, everything will turn out alright cos god is there. everything
will turn out just right. it may not be what you want, but in time you'll realise that that is what's good for you and that's what god wanted and intend for in your life..
i hope this (really really truely) marks the turning point and change in my walk with him, where my trust really reaches the peak that god wants it to be. sometimes it seems so far, and i always end up falling away slowly, although i dont realise it. or i even just dont care. anyway. i'm just gonna try stay happy, because i dont think god wants me to be so gloomy. yupp. and i now know better that god is always there and paying attention to me all the time.
and i hope that e math is going to be a do-able paper tmr.
a shout of praise.
8:30 PM
